New Year, Same Life, New Challenges..

2:07AM


I had bouts of rage, depression and misery these past few days. I can't honestly say I am totally over it but hey, it's a new year and I still have the same life - the life that we planned to spend together albeit a bit different. 


When we are struck with change, sometimes we act negatively. And I did. And we've gone through it a million times - the change was abrupt and a bit shakey. You admitted it and I, in my anger, tried to rub it as hard as I can in your face. It was ugly. It wasn't good. You never deserved it. And I am sorry. I really am.


I feared that with your strong personality, you'll never yield to my mean and hurtful statements. But you did. You did. It's weird that I'll thank you for that but, thanks. You understood my anger and tried to assuage it despite that fact that all along, it is not only I who's hurting. I was blinded by my own issues. My own pains. My selfishness. You were at your most patient and loving during those rocky times. You were at your strongest. If anything, I loved you even more than before.


Ours is perfect because of its imperfections and how we rose above all those. I know more storms will need to come but I know we will be both strong enough for one another. I will always hold on to that moment when, in both our confusion, we found that moment that changed everything. When we preserved whatever it is that we can so that we can go through the burden of Beginning. When you looked past what was me and I looked past what was you. 


The best is yet to come. This is a new year. Another year that we can be happy together. <3




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